was stationed at suntec since monday and opp our shop was Hush Puppies.. There was this ger working there who is super duper 38 m kpo which i could not stand her one bit, the way she speaks realli feel like scotch taping her mouth, nt onli tat she likes to poke her nose in other ppl's business..

well, our closing hours should be 9.30 and i always closed down the shutters at 9.20 cuz we need to do settlement and count the cash, as i was realli slow i had to close down early so i can finish everything bt 9.35.. another reason was, i was a part timer lor, my time was still 9.30 and there's no reason for me to work extra for them and they noe they next day i had sch and as long as i didn leave home b4 9.30, wat time i close down the shutters was up to me..

and this BIG KPO ran over to our shop and complaint to my colleague tat i closed the shutters at 9.15 and there were mani ppl at tat time and i had lost mani sales.. PLEASE.. i CLOSED AT 9.20 since when 9.15.. she still asked my colleague to confirm wif her colleague.. wtf.. my boss nv ask me or tell me off, when is her turn to do so!! she still ask my colleague come and scold me.. wtf.. my colleague gt fed up wif her and asked her to shooed off..

after tat.. whenever we were both talking, she will turned her head over to look, maybe she wanted to see if i was scolded by her.. nt onli tat, today i closed at 9.25 to save her frm her kponess.. she still ran infront of the shop to see me close down the shutters.. grrrr... realli cant stand it, even im typin this blog now, im feeled wif anger.. zzz

aniwae if this happens on wed again, im going to tell her off.. juz hope tat her mouth will rot to death!
*BIG YAWN*.. its so late and im still online, usually during this time i will be buzy hugging my sweet bolster and covering my warm blankie lying on bed playing chess wif zhou gong bt today i juz cant.. cuz im buzy doing my project.. its a super disaster cuz i had to hand it in today as in 30/8 noon! faints so i had to rush for it now~

my eyes now are gettin super heavy! and not only tat my report i had to do is on ghost tours.. *freak* can u imagine surfing ghost webbies in the middle of the night like this.. oh my.. i confirm going to switch on the lights and sleep tonight.. im super gutless..

not onli tat i had also recieved a call frm my teacher sayin tat there will be a class gathering tomorrow after sch.. oh my!! haven we gathered enuff in sch, i had gt disappointed wif class gatherings after the last chalet we had with 152 pcs of chicken wings, i realli wonder wat surprise we'll b waiting for tml.. bt sadly, im nt joining them~ haaax.. so may those ppl going had fun!!

arhh.. finally the report is done now.. and i can finalli crawl back to my sweetie bed.. yeah yeah~ tats all folks!!
hmm.. today is my 1st day starting work at Green Petals, my sat job!! hehex.. was abit nervous at 1st, dunno y i juz had tat kinda feelings.. its nt as if it was my 1st job bt i juz cant help feeling nervous.. i reached far east real early and had 45mins to rot around before i start so i decided to shop around.. went to this earring shop and saw the big sign - 3 for 10 bucks and d earrings are realli unique and nice made of wooden beads lor.. so gt 3 for myself.. after tat i decided to sit at level 2 cuz if i continue walking around, i will keep spending so i had to control myself abit, sat there and gt myself entertained with the live band singing outside and hey.. realli cant judge a book by its cover lor.. d lead singer and her band looks nerd bt wat do ya noe.. when she open her mouth, powerful!! everyone was so engross wif her singing and she sound abit of avril lavinge cum evanesence... real cool for a chinese lor!!

after awhile i had to crawl to work.. actualli it was nt bad for my 1st day.. the ger working wif me was realli friendly and nice.. and the accessories there are realli nice + 100% handmade.. sort of "tou shi" frm her abit.. hmm now i arga noe hw to make d earrings, i can try my hands on them when my pay day is here and can shop for the materials cuz she said the 1st time she spent 200+ buying the materials.. faints.. bt i juz wanted to do them for fun! haax.. aniwae i can get my maid to do it since she so free shaking leg at hm.. my as well ask her do them for me!! a skill for her also.. rights??

after my hard day at work.. dearie treat me to my pig organs soup which i had been craving for days.. yum yum.. finally i can get to taste them.. quickly rush home after tat cuz i need to rush for my sch project and also need to help dearie bid for his helmet.. zzz.. dunno hw mani metal coconuts he wanted to have cuz he juz bought another OGK helmet other than his previous one.. bt aniwae he also bid for me a gameboy advance to keep me company when i go out wif him so i wouldn get bored when he's buzy chit chatting wif his friends.. how nice..

aniwae the auction for them is over.. and happily i won.. so now had to wait for the owner to call dearie and see how we can get our goodiess...
went for my 1st makeover package.. all thanks to mummi.. cuz she wanna take one for herself and she's afraid so she signed up one for me so i can acc her along..

was feeling super tense and nervous cuz its my 1st experience.. cannot even be myself infront of the camera!! had my make-up on.. wah its super thick lor.. i look as if im gonna shoot horror movie and d lipstick they had on me was super red and glossy, coloured my eyes real dark.. and they tied my hair like xiao long nu!! zzz...

the experience was quite fun la.. bt i look more like a block of wood.. haax.. ma says they make her look younger bt make me look older.. so opposite..

saw the outcome and complained a little.. and the cameraman say he will try to tone down d lipstick col for me.. good!! abit excited about the outcome of the pics.. if it look nice i mite consider posting it on multiply so at the meantime had to wait for the pics to be out...
juz came back frm supper at west coast mac.. was riding on the way hm and went pass one of my ex's hse.. started thinking of him, the time we once had..

actualli i dun onli think of him bt sometimes when i went to some places, memories wif my once ex-s will start floating in my mind... thinking of the happy times we had, what we done for each other, petty quarrels, y we broke up.. all these are sweet puppy loves which helps one grow and learn thru relationships..

even now when i see young couples, a sweet kinda feeling will melt my heart.. cuz their love are so pure without any worries or troubles.. and time realli flies which i had been wif dearie for 5 long yrs already..

our relationship had grown from a rocky one to a stable one.. bt a relationship can nv be stable cuz its juz like the sea.. sometimes rocky sometimes smooth.. there's always rain and storm.. obstacles to overcome.. when u finish overcoming one, the satisfaction is there and the relationship grows even stronger!!

i really wonder.. did my exs still remember me? do they still rem tat there's once such a person crossing pass their life? do i still hold a small place in their heart.. nt love bt remembering me as a person?!

i dunno.. bt i hope they do.. bt no matter they did or nt.. i will still remember them.. keeping the memories deep in a little corner of my heart.. wishing them the best.. hope one day when we saw each other on the streets.. we will still say hi~!
its another 4 more days to adulthood.. celebrated my early bday wif my bestest buds - shuan, eileen and jinye... wanna thank them for celebrating my bday wif me every year.. nt forgetting my big day and for the big bday presents they always gt for me.. i realli appreciate it alot and thanks for everything..

met up wif them at 5pm.. had my interview at far east.. went veri well and i gotta start work starting from next sat onwards.. bt of cuz im still wif xcessories.. the far east job is juz an weekend job which can help me get a breathier frm xcessories, need a change of environment sometimes... after tat we shopped ard, bought my bday gift from levis - ladies style~ thanks to sandy, shuan, jinye and mingli for the present.. i love it alot!! after that we had dinner at pastamania.. sorry for the cheap meal gers, promise to gif u all a big treat next yr.. ^.^

after dinner, dearie came and fetch me while the rest went clubbing at club momo.. didnt join them cuz we are going kulai.. while waiting for dear, i went shopping at hereen and saw this nice tube top, its uniquely 1 pc and i love it veri much.. without hesitation i gt it, knowing i will eat grass after that.. haax..

went to kulai wif dearie and his friends and had supper there, i juz watched them eat cuz im still so full frm my dinner.. by looking at their food realli made me so tempted to eat bt i need to stick to my diet.. i shall nt sin.. haax..

on the way out frm custom.. dear sped n the stupid helmet flew off my head, chokin me.. i tout i would die.. was super angry.. cuz in kulai i was wearing the full face while dear wore the normal one, bt he kept complaining tat his neck is hurting.. thinking tat since we were on our way back and dear will nt speed i decided to change wif him cuz the normal helmet realli sucks and hurts the neck.. bt when we were out tat idiot sped.. i wasnt ready cuz im half asleep and almost flew off.. faints.. the helmet came off.. makin me gt so angry cuz im dying..

bt to think back of it, abit funni la.. cuz u imagine my expression at tat time was realli super cartoon.. haha..

aniwae he promis to get me a new helmet in case this sorta things happen again.. i told him tat it wont happen again cuz im nt going to sit on his bike if he decided to end my life juz like tat.. zzz...
sobz.. im super sick AGAIN!! this time im down wif flu, had itchy throats and headache.. omg!! i dun wanna be sick cuz i had whole lot of activities coming my way this one wk holiday.. sobz

was reading the I mag and it wrote bird flu vs normal flu.. suddenly my eyes open super big, trying to find out which one i had caught!!.. and the symptons i had showed that i caught the normal flu.. Luckily.. im still too young to die.. hahax...

i had to get myself go well before 4 cuz im meetin my buds up for dinner later and after tat kulai wif dearie.. so i cant be a sick sick ger..

btw im going for an interview at far east later.. only work on sat.. so extra income.. hahax.. $.$
was wondering if i should change my N7610 cuz it had been with me for a year already.. (d 1st time i had a phone for a year!!) tout of changing to the 3G phone - N6680 cuz dearie say i can use his s700i to trade in for it bt i must top up the rest.. bt he also told me to wait longer to see if there's better phones coming out cuz N6680 had been in the market for quite long and dun realli worth it.. well actually i like tat phone was not becuz its 3G cuz i felt its no point getting 1 now cuz nt everyone is using it, i like it cuz it has camera on both sides and im a photo taking freak.. see my gallery and u'll know hw mani pics i've kept.. my mmc card is also onli used to store pics.. hahas..

so i decided to surf nokia.com to see if there's any new upcoming release.. arhh.. saw the new nokia N series.. and its realli veri nice.. the N91 is sort of a mp3 phone which had an internal memory of 4gb, 2 megapixels wif 8x zoom with hi fi quality sound.. (suddenly felt tat this might suit dearie alot!) and the N90 which sort of resembles N6260.. had 2 megapixels wif carl zeiss optics, high quality vhs video recording, 262k display, 31 mb memory and 64mb expandable memory.. saw its personal webbie and its a super photo taking fone (suits me alot!)..

will ask dearie to take a look a the webbie and give me comments bout them.. he hex..
I just finished watching my vcd "Mars -- Zhan Shen" starred by zai zai and da S! oh.. zai zai had made me gone head over heels over him after finish watching the show.. my heart beats faster very time when it was his scene, the words he said really made me melt.. his great love for qi luo(da s) really is so magnificent.. haizz.. how i wish in the real, cruel, realistic world there will be at least one of this kinda guy.. bt to think of it, if really there's one, he might had been taken!! zzz..

this is the 2nd show i watched that really melted my heart.. 1st was "liu xing hua yuan" and now this.. watched dolphin bay bt the show wasnt touching at all.. juz long winded..

lord, i pray tat a guy like ling(zai zai) would appear in my life.. hahaz.. okie the second thing im gonna pray for tonight is lord, let me dream of him for the next 2 mths.. Thank you.. Amen.. oh.. im going crazzziiiii
To make you happy, i had to make myself miserable.. wtf.. i dun tink u ever think bout how i felt.. i dun tink u ever noe hw i felt.. all u know is wat u wan and wat u need~ u nv spare a tout for me..

its time to grow up bt u nv did.. its time to stop the fun bt u nv would.. haix.. i bloody bloody sick of this life.. wat can i say.. im juz a bloody stoopid ass who would get soft hearted each time and let u have wat u wan.. im juz a bloody stoopid fool who wans to make u happy and in end causing hurt to myself, making myself even miserable..

wat u only knew was to flare ur temper at me.. if u wan it ur way.. u juz need to blow ur top.. sitting down and talk wasnt ur habit.. kicking stuff and throwing things are wat u know..

can u tell me when i can walk out of this life.. can u tell me when u can stop making me miserable.. tell me when u will learn to grow up and be serious in life..

argggghhhhh.... how i wish i can leave this bloody world, throw this stoopid mess away... shits...
was at work when my colleague told me that she caught the movie "The Maid".. so ended asked her to summarise the whole story for me.. i too really wan to catch the show bt my sweetie is afraid of watching horror movies.. faints.. cuz he said that it will haunt him in his dreams.. diaOz..

The Maid..

The movie was about this maid who came from phillipines to work for cheng shu chen and hong huifang an elderly couple who had a retarded son.. as working here was the 1st time and coincidently met wif the hungry ghost festival, the maid doesnt know anything about the rules for it..

there was once whereby she swept the whole ash up right after it just finish burning, after this happens a lady ghost started to haunt her.. she felt something push her or pull her, face appearing suddenly right infront of her.. until when, she kept hearing something banging from this particular room which cheng shu chen kept it locked all the while.. she quickly look for the keys and open the locked room and saw the drums banging on their own.. she was shocked and at the same time curious wat was inside those drums.. she looked for a knife to rip it open.. and she found a dead corpse all disfigured and rotting lying in the drums..

when suddenly the spirit of the dead corpse appears.. the dead corpse appears to be the couple's previous maid Esther.. Esther too came from phillipines to work for the family when one day, their retarded son rape her.. she was devasted and wanted to go to the police bt the couple wouldnt let her.. because of her persistence, the couple had no choice bt to kill her with acid.. and later trapped her body in the drums.. Esther thank the maid for freeing her soul and told her that her previous hauntings was to warn her about the family and asked her to leave the place asap..

when the maid wanted to leave, the couple forced the maid to marry their retarded son.. the maid saw a photo of her on the alter and the other covered.. she pulled the cloth down and saw the photo of the retarded son.. things started to flash back and she found out that the son was actually a ghost.. Actually, not long before Esther was killed, the son committed suicide cuz although he's retarded bt he loves Esther.. all this while, the son came back to the hse becuz its the 7th month and only the maid doesnt know that she was seeing and holding onto a spirit.. the son all along treated the maid as Esther cuz the maid wore Esther's clothes..

cheng shu chen force the maid to marry their son and asked her wife to burn her as she need to say "Yes" before able to marry the dead.. he told his son to go upstairs and that his bride will be there soon.. it was until then, the son remembered tat he was his father who killed Esther and that the maid wasnt her.. he quickly poured acid onto his dad so as to stop him.. and the maid quickly ran.. hong hui fang gave chase bt was later knocked down by the car.. the house was burning profusely with furious flames..

at the end the maid carried Esther's ash together with her back to phillipines... when she was at the airport.. the souls of the family stood behind the close doors of the custom....

Thats All Folks..

The story is based on the summary told by my colleague so it means it might not be 100% same as the movie.. watch it and u will know..
was left to work alone cuz the other part timer working with me has fallen very ill.. bt she still force herself to come to work and left at 3.. poor thingy.. its a sat and time was suppose to run very fast.. bt its so diff for today, there's not many people shopping around and the clock is running super slow.. i tried to kept myself super busy with the stock bt then the time still runs slow.. haiz.. ended up having neckache and a split headache..

neckache was becuz i had to keep looking down and do the stocks while headache was because maybe i didnt get much sleep last night cuz i was chionging my ou xiang ju.. zhan shen--mars starred by zai zai and da s!! nice show really!! started to fall asleep at work cuz its getting bored.. it was until 8 pm, i started to feel like puking (im nt pregnant!!) maybe i ate the wrong thing, dear said it might be becuz i hadnt gone to the toilet lately.. i had serious constipation prob, think should go down to the pharmacy and see if there's any medicine that can help me shit my toxics out!! that explains y i had a super big tummy called fei fei!! sobzzz..

around 9pm, sweetie came and fetch me.. he was early so he came in and acc me knowing i was tired.. hee.. and its so true that d moment i saw him my sickness all went away, i was alive again instead of being a dead zombie.. kisses.. had my big appetite back again and had tosai and cheese prata for dinner.. yums.. bt as usual i cant finish them.. hahaha.. okie la.. waste money!!
its time for me to take a break and relax.. firstly, dearie and his bike thingy has come to an end.. cuz his x9 is already considered half-sold which forbids him to have 2nd touts riding it again and he had also seem to stop brooding that there's no one accompanying him go "jalan-jalan".. so thats all for my troubles..

secondly, i had sat for my WAD test today and all seem well cuz the paper seems so easy.. actually had to thank my that good for nothing teacher cuz she last min gave us the questions and answers of what will be asked.. just that the words will change abit bt the formula is exactly the same.. maybe she's guilty that she didnt teach us well so gave us tips to repay us.. hopefully i can get good grades for it, dun wanna put so high hopes cuz it seems tat those paper im super confident with didnt turn out well..

now i had one more CA to go for this mth which is my tourism... had to study for it cuz it will be held next thur.. so study study study and study..

thirdly, my another supervisor will be back for work on the 22nd.. and that makes me resume my super part-time job cuz im now considered full-time de part-time.. chimilogy right.. hahax.. anyway i will be super free when she's back and i can have enuff time for my studies and dearie.. had to tell him the good news cuz he had been waiting for a long time for me to stop working.. hehex..

so today is a happy happy day for me.. cuz everyting went well and just the way i wanted.. yeahs..
am i wrong to let you ride a class 2 bike? am i wrong to make that decision and support you on riding your class 2 bike? haiz.. i really dunno...

we were supposed to meet up with his friends last night and go for a ride bt dear headed home instead when they are ready to head for a new destination cuz he said that everyone is driving while he's the only one riding.. veri sian for him.. haiz.. i do wish to tag along nt becuz of the fun bt becuz i hadnt finish talkin wif d gerfriends, tried persuading him bt he gt angry with me instead..

when we reached home he kept persuadin me to let him go out and make new friends.. example go on outing with singaporebikes peeps.. bt i dun like it.. so i din agree.. is nt that i dun like him having new friends.. is juz tat everytime he had new friends, there will bound to have conflicts between us cuz new friends include gers.. haiz.. im sick of these happening again and again.. im so tired..

today dear told me that he wanna give away his bike and ride back his x9 again.. i was so angry hearing that.. cuz he was the one who told me that he wanna ride a class 2 bike again, he was the one who wanna buy that R1 and now he's telling me this..!! he told me that its pointless to ride a class 2 bike when what u can do with it was to ride it to work and home after that and that his friends couldn acc him go out for a ride cuz they need to be back home early!! urghh.. wats the diff? both of the bike has 2 wheels, y riding a r1 has to go out and riding a x9 u can stay at home?? i dun understand!! y keep adding troubles to me?? im so sick of it.. spending money and wasting money.. oh god!!

got soft hearted and finally i agreed to let him meet up wif the singaporebikes peeps.. and u know what he replied me?? he said that they meet up too early and he cannot make it.. whats the point?!! faints.. how i felt like banging my head on the wall.. he was the one who told me he wanna meet up with new friends cuz riding a class 2 alone is veri bored.. i now agreed to let him and he told me this... he's making me confuse or what??!!

now becuz i had gotten super pek chek.. he told me to treat as if he nv said this words out.. whats the point of making this sentence when u had blurted everyting out?? if i had knew this would happen earlier i wouldn support u getting that bike.. juz hope that in a few days time u will get over the no friends/all drive car matter and stop giving me any headache.. please...
this time im dead meat.. im having my ca on friday and i still havent study for it yet, not only that i didnt even haf one bit idea of what the book is saying cuz i had not been attending classes.. even if i do, i ended up playing in class cuz the teacher's teaching sucks.. so im dead now!!

luckily i still have 3 days before the ca and if i can cover 3 chaps per day.. i can make it for the ca so for now i had to hold my heart and pray heart that i could get all the programmings in my head before this fri..

this term is super crucial for me cuz if i can get my gpa of 3.2 and above i can apply for poly straight away so no matter what i need to pass this ca.. so that should be all for today's bloggie.. nid to bury my head in my books again..

wishie me luck!!!
was shopping at work at isetan when i saw one of my ex-colleague who i knew when i was workin for T&L a retail company.. had lunch together and talked about my ex-boss and other colleagues.. those whom i had knew worked there at left except her and after all this year my ex boss joyce hadnt changed one bit.. still a freaky childish boss..

The jOb

right after my O levels, i went to work for this company.. its has consignment outlets and boutique at hereen.. im the one stationed at the office.. less than a month, joyce sacked the only girl workin in the office, leaving me to take over whats was left.. i had to handle everything and learnt everything from scratch cuz i was nt known to this industry.. i on my own handled 3 of her outlets and the office.. with a miserable 880 bucks pay i am doing the job of a dozen ppl - tel operator, accountant, HR, salesgirl, logistic, cleaner, packer, so on and so on.. i was a super cheap labour..

everyone who joined the co later on had a higher pay than i do and her promise to raise my pay was empty and still had the cheek to tell me tat the co was not earnin $ bt she can stil offer others a higher pay..

stayed on for the job for one and a half years and applied for ite at the same time, when i gt my confirmation frm the sch, i gave her 6 mths notice tat i wanted to leave the job 2 wks earlier before sch reopen.. cuz i needed a break before the new start and tat was her promise to me..

during tat 6 mths was tedious cuz she kept hiring and sacking people at the same time, there wasnt anione to take over my position.. of cuz she had hired sales personnels to go out to outlets bt the work in the office was still alot... and tat time i need to handle 11 outlets accounts and stocks.. i was super breathless.. same for lynn our sales person cuz she's also leavin for ite together with me.. we are both physically and emotionally tired!!

during june our mid yr stock take she requested ask to stay longer, giving the both of us 2 days break before sch start.. although we agreed bt in our hearts, we were super reluctant.. we were both tired.. i at that time hurt my spine and dearie had a big accident.. i didnt haf the motivation to work. spoke to lynn bout it and the both of us had a long talked, we decided to tender our resignation.. when we went to collect our pay, we saw a termination letter infront of our face, shocked and angry.. i had nothing to say and stormed out of the office...

after all this years, i had gotten over and forgo this matter bt wat i had heard frm my colleague was tat joyce is still takin this matter to heart!! wat the hell, hadnt she took her revenge? vented a anger on giving us a termination letter? we had put in our heart and did the hard work for her for all these years, she didnt even think of wat we had contribute for her co.. to be honest. during tat time without me, her co confirm will fail cuz i'm the one doing the one man show for her when she sacked her girl!! until now she is still telling our stories to her other staffs even though they hadn seen us before..

joyce, i hope u c tis!! if u like to let everyone know so much, y not publish it in a book and sell them in leading bookstores.. and wat u said.. are u trying to proof u are the right one? u even had the facts wrong!! i guess u had forgotten wat had happened during tat time.. i guess i should remind u y the police came after u that time.. i guess we should call the mental hospital for u too..!!
i truely believe that one does not need too many friends, a few will do.. cuz these few will always be the one who will care and love you!! the one that you tout that might be your best friend ends up being someone who juz came by ur life and those who you tout tat are people who are passerbys in ur life ends up being the one who will treasure your friendship the most...

My StOry.. (names to be used as initials)

Its the 1st day being in my sec sch, im not someone who can communicate well and make friends wif strangers cuz im always the one being approached.. for the 1st 3 months i was alone.. until one day i decided to open up my voice and got to know these grp of gers a, b and c.. everything was fine at 1st when suddenly internal conflicts started to happen, we started talking behind each other backs~ well, a and b are always close together while me and c are together so it seems wierd to see a and b not talking to each other.. a started to join other friends.. soon b started acting wierd infront of me, whispering secrets wif c, leaving me alone.. i later confront b and asked and soon i know c was behind all this.. she backstabbed, the person we trust!!! of cuz a and b confronted her and gave a slap but things doesnt changed...

i of cuz continue being wif c.. years in our sec sch i started getting to know new friends from other classes.. at 1st i had a close relationship with them and during this time im stil close wif c.. bt all my friendship with them always ended up like the past.. we stopped talking suddenly cuz c told me they backstabbed me!! haiz.. bt its always months later when we found out that c was behind it again.. spoke to her bt still things nv changed...

i didnt sever my friendship wif her.. i continued being with her.. when we got older.. i got to know friends frm outside sch, i brought her along wif me cuz she will always be the one who share my happiness and woes, good things will be divided between us.. and there was this time i was disappointed, i brought another friend J along wif us and c was pulling j away frm me the whole day.. was left alone wif the guys.. called j up and asked if theres anything wrong and found out c was the one pulling her away frm me cuz she felt tat i left her out and she wanted to repay me double.. i was stunt.. i brought u along and u too noe them equally long as me, what do u mean by me leaving you out? i was super puzzled!!

when we were in sec 5, we got to know E, well she was in the same class wif us since sec 3 bt we didnt spoke to her until sec 5 cuz she sat infront of us.. we had fun together.. during tat time i needed help badly for my maths and science and c was a expert in them.. i kept askin her for help bt she kept askin me to wait bt when E asked her, she would reply her immediately, lending E her notes and meetin her out for studies.. im the one always having to wait and wait cuz she once told me that she doesnt want anione to be stronger than her in studies.. bt i tout her english too.. wasnt tat fair exchange? and ya, i failed tat 2 subs.. c happily went to poly..

i got even closer to E, we got the same jobs, hanged out most of the time and she was always my listener.. she treated me wif a genuine heart.. even now we dont get to contact each other often bt she does cares for me which im truely grateful for.. and theres a and ye who doesnt forget my bday every year..

c drifted away herself, i didnt leave her.. even til now the calls frm her was always boasting bout something or telling me bout her troubles.. when i wanted a listening ear frm her, she still kept talking bout she, herself and her! i rem once tat she cursed me tat if i dun celebrate her bday wif her, no one will rem mine.. i noe its a small matter bt even on my very bday, she didnt asked me bout it.. not a word.. frm this i got to know wat true friends are..

maybe i did something wrong that had caused her to put her revenge on me... maybe this and that... im too tired to think.. so let this be for the time being.. i decided to put this on my blog cuz this are kept in my heart for mani years since we are 13.. i need a place where i can pour out everyting and c might gt to read this..
filled up the application for Ebase on wed cuz felt that the place had more incentives than the current place im working at and they are able to accomodate to my school's time-table~ the provide uniform which can save me frm spendin money on clothes and staff vouchers which xcessories does not offer and the bags at our place are so ugly tat im so not interested in~

recieved a call in the noon frm Ebase calling me to go for an interview next week.. yeah~ will get back to me again when they had fixed the date~!~!~! not only tat i had also finally recieved my pay cheque.. la la la.. so i hope tat i can get the money tomorrow cuz i told my colleague to bank it in for me bt i guessed she banked in before 3 instead of 2 so dunno i haf the chance to get to see my money tml anot!

still thinking super hard how im gonna celebrate my bday... haix.. suddenly i felt tat singapore is so small.. keep thinking its still the same old places.. how good if there's a midnight theme park or what so ever..hahaha.. i guess i have to continue thinking cuz i need to get back wif shuan on my decision.. and for the time being i shall spend my fullest time as a teenage @ 20!! another 20 days to an adult... sobzzz..
for now im pronounced 100% indian racist.. well, i dun actually hate all indians.. there're a few catagories for them - singaporean indians and india indians n as for singaporean indian there are english indians and super indian indian...

explanation:
english indians - speaks english more than their own tamil languange
indian indians - have super strong tamil accent even they talk also will shake shake juz like india indians..

and there are onli 2 kinds of indians i super hate which is singapore's indian indian and india's indian!! why i started to hate them to the core?

its because everytime they come and buy stuffs from us they will ask for discount for sure.. even a cheap cheap hairclip which cost 1.80 also wans discounts and wan 50% off somemore.. if u tell them u cant they will keep saying "Make it make it" or "why not, i noe u cant" and more.. and when they are saying these sentences, they dun even let you have the chance to speak!! faints.. i dun wish to pay the remaining amount for u peeps and if you dun haf money DONT SHOP just get your ass out!!! go back to ur india and shop la, the stuffs there are cheaper there..

went to mustafa centre wif dearie today cuz the person intro him the wrong usb adaptor which does not connects to his own router but someone's else router cuz the adaptor is meant for those who does not haf net at home!! so he went down and wanted to ask for an exchange.. the bloody indian salesman started shouting at us and say tat if this adaptor cant use, others also cant use.. said tat dear's technician is a hoax and dunno anithin.. and said tat mustafa dun allow refund cuz once the box is open no one will buy it!! wao lao he thinks im idiot, which place u shop at cant make exchange unless stated and he didnt state tis at the point of time when we make our purchase!! i noe dear is goin to shout bt i could tell he controlled his anger and spoke to take bloody idiot nicely! dear gave up makin the exchange and decided to make a new purchase of the right adaptor and tat idiot kept speakin his bloody tamil wif his collegue and reminded us not to exchange wif a shoutin voice.. i too also wanna shout bt there's too mani ppl dunwan make myself pai seh.. please we are their customers and are being treated like tis.. zzz.. now i swear tat whenever there's an singapore indian indian or india indian stepped into my shop gettin anything i cfm use back the same attitude to them!!

call me racist whatever.. dun gif a damn.. i hereby declare im one!! as for singaporeans english indian are better than the others.. way of communication works..
wasnt able to blog for the past few days as the com has been taken away frm repair and when its back on sat, dad dunno go download wat anti-virus thingy and after tat it causes the com to hang.. faints.. dad had to bring it back for repair again n tis time our firewall has gone and also my office 2000 had been removed cuz the technician was super pek chek wif it as it kept hanging.. lesson learnt - nv download anti virus software offer on the net!! hahax.. poor dad had to waste another 30 bucks!!

dearie gt a 2nd hand com for his roomie - pentium3.. n onli costs him for 130 bucks.. cheap hor!! accompanied him to mustafa centre to get stuffs like router and a card reader.. suddenly felt tat he became so rich.. zzz..

for the past few days, it was as usual work n sch, work n sch nuttin else more.. haix.. my life is starting to get dull and finally i gt an off day today cuz i fake tat i had exams today so my supervisor LL oso my gif me off.. yeah yeah..

was on the way to sch today when.. i recieved a phone call frm karen sayin tat there's no lesson.. super duper faint bt its fine wif me la cuz aniwae i had to crawl to dearie hse even though there's no lesson bt its juz tat i hate being in the sch U...

and for nw.. im happily lyin on dearie's bed using his new com.. hahahahaha...

was stationed at suntec since monday and opp our shop was Hush Puppies.. There was this ger working there who is super duper 38 m kpo which i could not stand her one bit, the way she speaks realli feel like scotch taping her mouth, nt onli tat she likes to poke her nose in other ppl's business..

well, our closing hours should be 9.30 and i always closed down the shutters at 9.20 cuz we need to do settlement and count the cash, as i was realli slow i had to close down early so i can finish everything bt 9.35.. another reason was, i was a part timer lor, my time was still 9.30 and there's no reason for me to work extra for them and they noe they next day i had sch and as long as i didn leave home b4 9.30, wat time i close down the shutters was up to me..

and this BIG KPO ran over to our shop and complaint to my colleague tat i closed the shutters at 9.15 and there were mani ppl at tat time and i had lost mani sales.. PLEASE.. i CLOSED AT 9.20 since when 9.15.. she still asked my colleague to confirm wif her colleague.. wtf.. my boss nv ask me or tell me off, when is her turn to do so!! she still ask my colleague come and scold me.. wtf.. my colleague gt fed up wif her and asked her to shooed off..

after tat.. whenever we were both talking, she will turned her head over to look, maybe she wanted to see if i was scolded by her.. nt onli tat, today i closed at 9.25 to save her frm her kponess.. she still ran infront of the shop to see me close down the shutters.. grrrr... realli cant stand it, even im typin this blog now, im feeled wif anger.. zzz

aniwae if this happens on wed again, im going to tell her off.. juz hope tat her mouth will rot to death!
*BIG YAWN*.. its so late and im still online, usually during this time i will be buzy hugging my sweet bolster and covering my warm blankie lying on bed playing chess wif zhou gong bt today i juz cant.. cuz im buzy doing my project.. its a super disaster cuz i had to hand it in today as in 30/8 noon! faints so i had to rush for it now~

my eyes now are gettin super heavy! and not only tat my report i had to do is on ghost tours.. *freak* can u imagine surfing ghost webbies in the middle of the night like this.. oh my.. i confirm going to switch on the lights and sleep tonight.. im super gutless..

not onli tat i had also recieved a call frm my teacher sayin tat there will be a class gathering tomorrow after sch.. oh my!! haven we gathered enuff in sch, i had gt disappointed wif class gatherings after the last chalet we had with 152 pcs of chicken wings, i realli wonder wat surprise we'll b waiting for tml.. bt sadly, im nt joining them~ haaax.. so may those ppl going had fun!!

arhh.. finally the report is done now.. and i can finalli crawl back to my sweetie bed.. yeah yeah~ tats all folks!!
hmm.. today is my 1st day starting work at Green Petals, my sat job!! hehex.. was abit nervous at 1st, dunno y i juz had tat kinda feelings.. its nt as if it was my 1st job bt i juz cant help feeling nervous.. i reached far east real early and had 45mins to rot around before i start so i decided to shop around.. went to this earring shop and saw the big sign - 3 for 10 bucks and d earrings are realli unique and nice made of wooden beads lor.. so gt 3 for myself.. after tat i decided to sit at level 2 cuz if i continue walking around, i will keep spending so i had to control myself abit, sat there and gt myself entertained with the live band singing outside and hey.. realli cant judge a book by its cover lor.. d lead singer and her band looks nerd bt wat do ya noe.. when she open her mouth, powerful!! everyone was so engross wif her singing and she sound abit of avril lavinge cum evanesence... real cool for a chinese lor!!

after awhile i had to crawl to work.. actualli it was nt bad for my 1st day.. the ger working wif me was realli friendly and nice.. and the accessories there are realli nice + 100% handmade.. sort of "tou shi" frm her abit.. hmm now i arga noe hw to make d earrings, i can try my hands on them when my pay day is here and can shop for the materials cuz she said the 1st time she spent 200+ buying the materials.. faints.. bt i juz wanted to do them for fun! haax.. aniwae i can get my maid to do it since she so free shaking leg at hm.. my as well ask her do them for me!! a skill for her also.. rights??

after my hard day at work.. dearie treat me to my pig organs soup which i had been craving for days.. yum yum.. finally i can get to taste them.. quickly rush home after tat cuz i need to rush for my sch project and also need to help dearie bid for his helmet.. zzz.. dunno hw mani metal coconuts he wanted to have cuz he juz bought another OGK helmet other than his previous one.. bt aniwae he also bid for me a gameboy advance to keep me company when i go out wif him so i wouldn get bored when he's buzy chit chatting wif his friends.. how nice..

aniwae the auction for them is over.. and happily i won.. so now had to wait for the owner to call dearie and see how we can get our goodiess...
went for my 1st makeover package.. all thanks to mummi.. cuz she wanna take one for herself and she's afraid so she signed up one for me so i can acc her along..

was feeling super tense and nervous cuz its my 1st experience.. cannot even be myself infront of the camera!! had my make-up on.. wah its super thick lor.. i look as if im gonna shoot horror movie and d lipstick they had on me was super red and glossy, coloured my eyes real dark.. and they tied my hair like xiao long nu!! zzz...

the experience was quite fun la.. bt i look more like a block of wood.. haax.. ma says they make her look younger bt make me look older.. so opposite..

saw the outcome and complained a little.. and the cameraman say he will try to tone down d lipstick col for me.. good!! abit excited about the outcome of the pics.. if it look nice i mite consider posting it on multiply so at the meantime had to wait for the pics to be out...
juz came back frm supper at west coast mac.. was riding on the way hm and went pass one of my ex's hse.. started thinking of him, the time we once had..

actualli i dun onli think of him bt sometimes when i went to some places, memories wif my once ex-s will start floating in my mind... thinking of the happy times we had, what we done for each other, petty quarrels, y we broke up.. all these are sweet puppy loves which helps one grow and learn thru relationships..

even now when i see young couples, a sweet kinda feeling will melt my heart.. cuz their love are so pure without any worries or troubles.. and time realli flies which i had been wif dearie for 5 long yrs already..

our relationship had grown from a rocky one to a stable one.. bt a relationship can nv be stable cuz its juz like the sea.. sometimes rocky sometimes smooth.. there's always rain and storm.. obstacles to overcome.. when u finish overcoming one, the satisfaction is there and the relationship grows even stronger!!

i really wonder.. did my exs still remember me? do they still rem tat there's once such a person crossing pass their life? do i still hold a small place in their heart.. nt love bt remembering me as a person?!

i dunno.. bt i hope they do.. bt no matter they did or nt.. i will still remember them.. keeping the memories deep in a little corner of my heart.. wishing them the best.. hope one day when we saw each other on the streets.. we will still say hi~!
its another 4 more days to adulthood.. celebrated my early bday wif my bestest buds - shuan, eileen and jinye... wanna thank them for celebrating my bday wif me every year.. nt forgetting my big day and for the big bday presents they always gt for me.. i realli appreciate it alot and thanks for everything..

met up wif them at 5pm.. had my interview at far east.. went veri well and i gotta start work starting from next sat onwards.. bt of cuz im still wif xcessories.. the far east job is juz an weekend job which can help me get a breathier frm xcessories, need a change of environment sometimes... after tat we shopped ard, bought my bday gift from levis - ladies style~ thanks to sandy, shuan, jinye and mingli for the present.. i love it alot!! after that we had dinner at pastamania.. sorry for the cheap meal gers, promise to gif u all a big treat next yr.. ^.^

after dinner, dearie came and fetch me while the rest went clubbing at club momo.. didnt join them cuz we are going kulai.. while waiting for dear, i went shopping at hereen and saw this nice tube top, its uniquely 1 pc and i love it veri much.. without hesitation i gt it, knowing i will eat grass after that.. haax..

went to kulai wif dearie and his friends and had supper there, i juz watched them eat cuz im still so full frm my dinner.. by looking at their food realli made me so tempted to eat bt i need to stick to my diet.. i shall nt sin.. haax..

on the way out frm custom.. dear sped n the stupid helmet flew off my head, chokin me.. i tout i would die.. was super angry.. cuz in kulai i was wearing the full face while dear wore the normal one, bt he kept complaining tat his neck is hurting.. thinking tat since we were on our way back and dear will nt speed i decided to change wif him cuz the normal helmet realli sucks and hurts the neck.. bt when we were out tat idiot sped.. i wasnt ready cuz im half asleep and almost flew off.. faints.. the helmet came off.. makin me gt so angry cuz im dying..

bt to think back of it, abit funni la.. cuz u imagine my expression at tat time was realli super cartoon.. haha..

aniwae he promis to get me a new helmet in case this sorta things happen again.. i told him tat it wont happen again cuz im nt going to sit on his bike if he decided to end my life juz like tat.. zzz...
sobz.. im super sick AGAIN!! this time im down wif flu, had itchy throats and headache.. omg!! i dun wanna be sick cuz i had whole lot of activities coming my way this one wk holiday.. sobz

was reading the I mag and it wrote bird flu vs normal flu.. suddenly my eyes open super big, trying to find out which one i had caught!!.. and the symptons i had showed that i caught the normal flu.. Luckily.. im still too young to die.. hahax...

i had to get myself go well before 4 cuz im meetin my buds up for dinner later and after tat kulai wif dearie.. so i cant be a sick sick ger..

btw im going for an interview at far east later.. only work on sat.. so extra income.. hahax.. $.$
was wondering if i should change my N7610 cuz it had been with me for a year already.. (d 1st time i had a phone for a year!!) tout of changing to the 3G phone - N6680 cuz dearie say i can use his s700i to trade in for it bt i must top up the rest.. bt he also told me to wait longer to see if there's better phones coming out cuz N6680 had been in the market for quite long and dun realli worth it.. well actually i like tat phone was not becuz its 3G cuz i felt its no point getting 1 now cuz nt everyone is using it, i like it cuz it has camera on both sides and im a photo taking freak.. see my gallery and u'll know hw mani pics i've kept.. my mmc card is also onli used to store pics.. hahas..

so i decided to surf nokia.com to see if there's any new upcoming release.. arhh.. saw the new nokia N series.. and its realli veri nice.. the N91 is sort of a mp3 phone which had an internal memory of 4gb, 2 megapixels wif 8x zoom with hi fi quality sound.. (suddenly felt tat this might suit dearie alot!) and the N90 which sort of resembles N6260.. had 2 megapixels wif carl zeiss optics, high quality vhs video recording, 262k display, 31 mb memory and 64mb expandable memory.. saw its personal webbie and its a super photo taking fone (suits me alot!)..

will ask dearie to take a look a the webbie and give me comments bout them.. he hex..
I just finished watching my vcd "Mars -- Zhan Shen" starred by zai zai and da S! oh.. zai zai had made me gone head over heels over him after finish watching the show.. my heart beats faster very time when it was his scene, the words he said really made me melt.. his great love for qi luo(da s) really is so magnificent.. haizz.. how i wish in the real, cruel, realistic world there will be at least one of this kinda guy.. bt to think of it, if really there's one, he might had been taken!! zzz..

this is the 2nd show i watched that really melted my heart.. 1st was "liu xing hua yuan" and now this.. watched dolphin bay bt the show wasnt touching at all.. juz long winded..

lord, i pray tat a guy like ling(zai zai) would appear in my life.. hahaz.. okie the second thing im gonna pray for tonight is lord, let me dream of him for the next 2 mths.. Thank you.. Amen.. oh.. im going crazzziiiii
To make you happy, i had to make myself miserable.. wtf.. i dun tink u ever think bout how i felt.. i dun tink u ever noe hw i felt.. all u know is wat u wan and wat u need~ u nv spare a tout for me..

its time to grow up bt u nv did.. its time to stop the fun bt u nv would.. haix.. i bloody bloody sick of this life.. wat can i say.. im juz a bloody stoopid ass who would get soft hearted each time and let u have wat u wan.. im juz a bloody stoopid fool who wans to make u happy and in end causing hurt to myself, making myself even miserable..

wat u only knew was to flare ur temper at me.. if u wan it ur way.. u juz need to blow ur top.. sitting down and talk wasnt ur habit.. kicking stuff and throwing things are wat u know..

can u tell me when i can walk out of this life.. can u tell me when u can stop making me miserable.. tell me when u will learn to grow up and be serious in life..

argggghhhhh.... how i wish i can leave this bloody world, throw this stoopid mess away... shits...
was at work when my colleague told me that she caught the movie "The Maid".. so ended asked her to summarise the whole story for me.. i too really wan to catch the show bt my sweetie is afraid of watching horror movies.. faints.. cuz he said that it will haunt him in his dreams.. diaOz..

The Maid..

The movie was about this maid who came from phillipines to work for cheng shu chen and hong huifang an elderly couple who had a retarded son.. as working here was the 1st time and coincidently met wif the hungry ghost festival, the maid doesnt know anything about the rules for it..

there was once whereby she swept the whole ash up right after it just finish burning, after this happens a lady ghost started to haunt her.. she felt something push her or pull her, face appearing suddenly right infront of her.. until when, she kept hearing something banging from this particular room which cheng shu chen kept it locked all the while.. she quickly look for the keys and open the locked room and saw the drums banging on their own.. she was shocked and at the same time curious wat was inside those drums.. she looked for a knife to rip it open.. and she found a dead corpse all disfigured and rotting lying in the drums..

when suddenly the spirit of the dead corpse appears.. the dead corpse appears to be the couple's previous maid Esther.. Esther too came from phillipines to work for the family when one day, their retarded son rape her.. she was devasted and wanted to go to the police bt the couple wouldnt let her.. because of her persistence, the couple had no choice bt to kill her with acid.. and later trapped her body in the drums.. Esther thank the maid for freeing her soul and told her that her previous hauntings was to warn her about the family and asked her to leave the place asap..

when the maid wanted to leave, the couple forced the maid to marry their retarded son.. the maid saw a photo of her on the alter and the other covered.. she pulled the cloth down and saw the photo of the retarded son.. things started to flash back and she found out that the son was actually a ghost.. Actually, not long before Esther was killed, the son committed suicide cuz although he's retarded bt he loves Esther.. all this while, the son came back to the hse becuz its the 7th month and only the maid doesnt know that she was seeing and holding onto a spirit.. the son all along treated the maid as Esther cuz the maid wore Esther's clothes..

cheng shu chen force the maid to marry their son and asked her wife to burn her as she need to say "Yes" before able to marry the dead.. he told his son to go upstairs and that his bride will be there soon.. it was until then, the son remembered tat he was his father who killed Esther and that the maid wasnt her.. he quickly poured acid onto his dad so as to stop him.. and the maid quickly ran.. hong hui fang gave chase bt was later knocked down by the car.. the house was burning profusely with furious flames..

at the end the maid carried Esther's ash together with her back to phillipines... when she was at the airport.. the souls of the family stood behind the close doors of the custom....

Thats All Folks..

The story is based on the summary told by my colleague so it means it might not be 100% same as the movie.. watch it and u will know..
was left to work alone cuz the other part timer working with me has fallen very ill.. bt she still force herself to come to work and left at 3.. poor thingy.. its a sat and time was suppose to run very fast.. bt its so diff for today, there's not many people shopping around and the clock is running super slow.. i tried to kept myself super busy with the stock bt then the time still runs slow.. haiz.. ended up having neckache and a split headache..

neckache was becuz i had to keep looking down and do the stocks while headache was because maybe i didnt get much sleep last night cuz i was chionging my ou xiang ju.. zhan shen--mars starred by zai zai and da s!! nice show really!! started to fall asleep at work cuz its getting bored.. it was until 8 pm, i started to feel like puking (im nt pregnant!!) maybe i ate the wrong thing, dear said it might be becuz i hadnt gone to the toilet lately.. i had serious constipation prob, think should go down to the pharmacy and see if there's any medicine that can help me shit my toxics out!! that explains y i had a super big tummy called fei fei!! sobzzz..

around 9pm, sweetie came and fetch me.. he was early so he came in and acc me knowing i was tired.. hee.. and its so true that d moment i saw him my sickness all went away, i was alive again instead of being a dead zombie.. kisses.. had my big appetite back again and had tosai and cheese prata for dinner.. yums.. bt as usual i cant finish them.. hahaha.. okie la.. waste money!!
its time for me to take a break and relax.. firstly, dearie and his bike thingy has come to an end.. cuz his x9 is already considered half-sold which forbids him to have 2nd touts riding it again and he had also seem to stop brooding that there's no one accompanying him go "jalan-jalan".. so thats all for my troubles..

secondly, i had sat for my WAD test today and all seem well cuz the paper seems so easy.. actually had to thank my that good for nothing teacher cuz she last min gave us the questions and answers of what will be asked.. just that the words will change abit bt the formula is exactly the same.. maybe she's guilty that she didnt teach us well so gave us tips to repay us.. hopefully i can get good grades for it, dun wanna put so high hopes cuz it seems tat those paper im super confident with didnt turn out well..

now i had one more CA to go for this mth which is my tourism... had to study for it cuz it will be held next thur.. so study study study and study..

thirdly, my another supervisor will be back for work on the 22nd.. and that makes me resume my super part-time job cuz im now considered full-time de part-time.. chimilogy right.. hahax.. anyway i will be super free when she's back and i can have enuff time for my studies and dearie.. had to tell him the good news cuz he had been waiting for a long time for me to stop working.. hehex..

so today is a happy happy day for me.. cuz everyting went well and just the way i wanted.. yeahs..
am i wrong to let you ride a class 2 bike? am i wrong to make that decision and support you on riding your class 2 bike? haiz.. i really dunno...

we were supposed to meet up with his friends last night and go for a ride bt dear headed home instead when they are ready to head for a new destination cuz he said that everyone is driving while he's the only one riding.. veri sian for him.. haiz.. i do wish to tag along nt becuz of the fun bt becuz i hadnt finish talkin wif d gerfriends, tried persuading him bt he gt angry with me instead..

when we reached home he kept persuadin me to let him go out and make new friends.. example go on outing with singaporebikes peeps.. bt i dun like it.. so i din agree.. is nt that i dun like him having new friends.. is juz tat everytime he had new friends, there will bound to have conflicts between us cuz new friends include gers.. haiz.. im sick of these happening again and again.. im so tired..

today dear told me that he wanna give away his bike and ride back his x9 again.. i was so angry hearing that.. cuz he was the one who told me that he wanna ride a class 2 bike again, he was the one who wanna buy that R1 and now he's telling me this..!! he told me that its pointless to ride a class 2 bike when what u can do with it was to ride it to work and home after that and that his friends couldn acc him go out for a ride cuz they need to be back home early!! urghh.. wats the diff? both of the bike has 2 wheels, y riding a r1 has to go out and riding a x9 u can stay at home?? i dun understand!! y keep adding troubles to me?? im so sick of it.. spending money and wasting money.. oh god!!

got soft hearted and finally i agreed to let him meet up wif the singaporebikes peeps.. and u know what he replied me?? he said that they meet up too early and he cannot make it.. whats the point?!! faints.. how i felt like banging my head on the wall.. he was the one who told me he wanna meet up with new friends cuz riding a class 2 alone is veri bored.. i now agreed to let him and he told me this... he's making me confuse or what??!!

now becuz i had gotten super pek chek.. he told me to treat as if he nv said this words out.. whats the point of making this sentence when u had blurted everyting out?? if i had knew this would happen earlier i wouldn support u getting that bike.. juz hope that in a few days time u will get over the no friends/all drive car matter and stop giving me any headache.. please...
this time im dead meat.. im having my ca on friday and i still havent study for it yet, not only that i didnt even haf one bit idea of what the book is saying cuz i had not been attending classes.. even if i do, i ended up playing in class cuz the teacher's teaching sucks.. so im dead now!!

luckily i still have 3 days before the ca and if i can cover 3 chaps per day.. i can make it for the ca so for now i had to hold my heart and pray heart that i could get all the programmings in my head before this fri..

this term is super crucial for me cuz if i can get my gpa of 3.2 and above i can apply for poly straight away so no matter what i need to pass this ca.. so that should be all for today's bloggie.. nid to bury my head in my books again..

wishie me luck!!!
was shopping at work at isetan when i saw one of my ex-colleague who i knew when i was workin for T&L a retail company.. had lunch together and talked about my ex-boss and other colleagues.. those whom i had knew worked there at left except her and after all this year my ex boss joyce hadnt changed one bit.. still a freaky childish boss..

The jOb

right after my O levels, i went to work for this company.. its has consignment outlets and boutique at hereen.. im the one stationed at the office.. less than a month, joyce sacked the only girl workin in the office, leaving me to take over whats was left.. i had to handle everything and learnt everything from scratch cuz i was nt known to this industry.. i on my own handled 3 of her outlets and the office.. with a miserable 880 bucks pay i am doing the job of a dozen ppl - tel operator, accountant, HR, salesgirl, logistic, cleaner, packer, so on and so on.. i was a super cheap labour..

everyone who joined the co later on had a higher pay than i do and her promise to raise my pay was empty and still had the cheek to tell me tat the co was not earnin $ bt she can stil offer others a higher pay..

stayed on for the job for one and a half years and applied for ite at the same time, when i gt my confirmation frm the sch, i gave her 6 mths notice tat i wanted to leave the job 2 wks earlier before sch reopen.. cuz i needed a break before the new start and tat was her promise to me..

during tat 6 mths was tedious cuz she kept hiring and sacking people at the same time, there wasnt anione to take over my position.. of cuz she had hired sales personnels to go out to outlets bt the work in the office was still alot... and tat time i need to handle 11 outlets accounts and stocks.. i was super breathless.. same for lynn our sales person cuz she's also leavin for ite together with me.. we are both physically and emotionally tired!!

during june our mid yr stock take she requested ask to stay longer, giving the both of us 2 days break before sch start.. although we agreed bt in our hearts, we were super reluctant.. we were both tired.. i at that time hurt my spine and dearie had a big accident.. i didnt haf the motivation to work. spoke to lynn bout it and the both of us had a long talked, we decided to tender our resignation.. when we went to collect our pay, we saw a termination letter infront of our face, shocked and angry.. i had nothing to say and stormed out of the office...

after all this years, i had gotten over and forgo this matter bt wat i had heard frm my colleague was tat joyce is still takin this matter to heart!! wat the hell, hadnt she took her revenge? vented a anger on giving us a termination letter? we had put in our heart and did the hard work for her for all these years, she didnt even think of wat we had contribute for her co.. to be honest. during tat time without me, her co confirm will fail cuz i'm the one doing the one man show for her when she sacked her girl!! until now she is still telling our stories to her other staffs even though they hadn seen us before..

joyce, i hope u c tis!! if u like to let everyone know so much, y not publish it in a book and sell them in leading bookstores.. and wat u said.. are u trying to proof u are the right one? u even had the facts wrong!! i guess u had forgotten wat had happened during tat time.. i guess i should remind u y the police came after u that time.. i guess we should call the mental hospital for u too..!!
i truely believe that one does not need too many friends, a few will do.. cuz these few will always be the one who will care and love you!! the one that you tout that might be your best friend ends up being someone who juz came by ur life and those who you tout tat are people who are passerbys in ur life ends up being the one who will treasure your friendship the most...

My StOry.. (names to be used as initials)

Its the 1st day being in my sec sch, im not someone who can communicate well and make friends wif strangers cuz im always the one being approached.. for the 1st 3 months i was alone.. until one day i decided to open up my voice and got to know these grp of gers a, b and c.. everything was fine at 1st when suddenly internal conflicts started to happen, we started talking behind each other backs~ well, a and b are always close together while me and c are together so it seems wierd to see a and b not talking to each other.. a started to join other friends.. soon b started acting wierd infront of me, whispering secrets wif c, leaving me alone.. i later confront b and asked and soon i know c was behind all this.. she backstabbed, the person we trust!!! of cuz a and b confronted her and gave a slap but things doesnt changed...

i of cuz continue being wif c.. years in our sec sch i started getting to know new friends from other classes.. at 1st i had a close relationship with them and during this time im stil close wif c.. bt all my friendship with them always ended up like the past.. we stopped talking suddenly cuz c told me they backstabbed me!! haiz.. bt its always months later when we found out that c was behind it again.. spoke to her bt still things nv changed...

i didnt sever my friendship wif her.. i continued being with her.. when we got older.. i got to know friends frm outside sch, i brought her along wif me cuz she will always be the one who share my happiness and woes, good things will be divided between us.. and there was this time i was disappointed, i brought another friend J along wif us and c was pulling j away frm me the whole day.. was left alone wif the guys.. called j up and asked if theres anything wrong and found out c was the one pulling her away frm me cuz she felt tat i left her out and she wanted to repay me double.. i was stunt.. i brought u along and u too noe them equally long as me, what do u mean by me leaving you out? i was super puzzled!!

when we were in sec 5, we got to know E, well she was in the same class wif us since sec 3 bt we didnt spoke to her until sec 5 cuz she sat infront of us.. we had fun together.. during tat time i needed help badly for my maths and science and c was a expert in them.. i kept askin her for help bt she kept askin me to wait bt when E asked her, she would reply her immediately, lending E her notes and meetin her out for studies.. im the one always having to wait and wait cuz she once told me that she doesnt want anione to be stronger than her in studies.. bt i tout her english too.. wasnt tat fair exchange? and ya, i failed tat 2 subs.. c happily went to poly..

i got even closer to E, we got the same jobs, hanged out most of the time and she was always my listener.. she treated me wif a genuine heart.. even now we dont get to contact each other often bt she does cares for me which im truely grateful for.. and theres a and ye who doesnt forget my bday every year..

c drifted away herself, i didnt leave her.. even til now the calls frm her was always boasting bout something or telling me bout her troubles.. when i wanted a listening ear frm her, she still kept talking bout she, herself and her! i rem once tat she cursed me tat if i dun celebrate her bday wif her, no one will rem mine.. i noe its a small matter bt even on my very bday, she didnt asked me bout it.. not a word.. frm this i got to know wat true friends are..

maybe i did something wrong that had caused her to put her revenge on me... maybe this and that... im too tired to think.. so let this be for the time being.. i decided to put this on my blog cuz this are kept in my heart for mani years since we are 13.. i need a place where i can pour out everyting and c might gt to read this..
filled up the application for Ebase on wed cuz felt that the place had more incentives than the current place im working at and they are able to accomodate to my school's time-table~ the provide uniform which can save me frm spendin money on clothes and staff vouchers which xcessories does not offer and the bags at our place are so ugly tat im so not interested in~

recieved a call in the noon frm Ebase calling me to go for an interview next week.. yeah~ will get back to me again when they had fixed the date~!~!~! not only tat i had also finally recieved my pay cheque.. la la la.. so i hope tat i can get the money tomorrow cuz i told my colleague to bank it in for me bt i guessed she banked in before 3 instead of 2 so dunno i haf the chance to get to see my money tml anot!

still thinking super hard how im gonna celebrate my bday... haix.. suddenly i felt tat singapore is so small.. keep thinking its still the same old places.. how good if there's a midnight theme park or what so ever..hahaha.. i guess i have to continue thinking cuz i need to get back wif shuan on my decision.. and for the time being i shall spend my fullest time as a teenage @ 20!! another 20 days to an adult... sobzzz..
for now im pronounced 100% indian racist.. well, i dun actually hate all indians.. there're a few catagories for them - singaporean indians and india indians n as for singaporean indian there are english indians and super indian indian...

explanation:
english indians - speaks english more than their own tamil languange
indian indians - have super strong tamil accent even they talk also will shake shake juz like india indians..

and there are onli 2 kinds of indians i super hate which is singapore's indian indian and india's indian!! why i started to hate them to the core?

its because everytime they come and buy stuffs from us they will ask for discount for sure.. even a cheap cheap hairclip which cost 1.80 also wans discounts and wan 50% off somemore.. if u tell them u cant they will keep saying "Make it make it" or "why not, i noe u cant" and more.. and when they are saying these sentences, they dun even let you have the chance to speak!! faints.. i dun wish to pay the remaining amount for u peeps and if you dun haf money DONT SHOP just get your ass out!!! go back to ur india and shop la, the stuffs there are cheaper there..

went to mustafa centre wif dearie today cuz the person intro him the wrong usb adaptor which does not connects to his own router but someone's else router cuz the adaptor is meant for those who does not haf net at home!! so he went down and wanted to ask for an exchange.. the bloody indian salesman started shouting at us and say tat if this adaptor cant use, others also cant use.. said tat dear's technician is a hoax and dunno anithin.. and said tat mustafa dun allow refund cuz once the box is open no one will buy it!! wao lao he thinks im idiot, which place u shop at cant make exchange unless stated and he didnt state tis at the point of time when we make our purchase!! i noe dear is goin to shout bt i could tell he controlled his anger and spoke to take bloody idiot nicely! dear gave up makin the exchange and decided to make a new purchase of the right adaptor and tat idiot kept speakin his bloody tamil wif his collegue and reminded us not to exchange wif a shoutin voice.. i too also wanna shout bt there's too mani ppl dunwan make myself pai seh.. please we are their customers and are being treated like tis.. zzz.. now i swear tat whenever there's an singapore indian indian or india indian stepped into my shop gettin anything i cfm use back the same attitude to them!!

call me racist whatever.. dun gif a damn.. i hereby declare im one!! as for singaporeans english indian are better than the others.. way of communication works..
wasnt able to blog for the past few days as the com has been taken away frm repair and when its back on sat, dad dunno go download wat anti-virus thingy and after tat it causes the com to hang.. faints.. dad had to bring it back for repair again n tis time our firewall has gone and also my office 2000 had been removed cuz the technician was super pek chek wif it as it kept hanging.. lesson learnt - nv download anti virus software offer on the net!! hahax.. poor dad had to waste another 30 bucks!!

dearie gt a 2nd hand com for his roomie - pentium3.. n onli costs him for 130 bucks.. cheap hor!! accompanied him to mustafa centre to get stuffs like router and a card reader.. suddenly felt tat he became so rich.. zzz..

for the past few days, it was as usual work n sch, work n sch nuttin else more.. haix.. my life is starting to get dull and finally i gt an off day today cuz i fake tat i had exams today so my supervisor LL oso my gif me off.. yeah yeah..

was on the way to sch today when.. i recieved a phone call frm karen sayin tat there's no lesson.. super duper faint bt its fine wif me la cuz aniwae i had to crawl to dearie hse even though there's no lesson bt its juz tat i hate being in the sch U...

and for nw.. im happily lyin on dearie's bed using his new com.. hahahahaha...

With soft gray eyes she gloomed and glowered;
With soft red lips she sang a song:
What knight might gaze upon her face,
Nor fare along?


For all her looks were full of spells,
And all her words, of sorcery;
And in some way they seemed to say,
"Oh, come with me! oh, come with me!
Oh, come with me, my love, Sir Kay!"--


How should he know the witch, I trow,
Morgan La Fey?


-- Cawein, Madison J. (1865-1914), "Morgan La Fey"

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Name : Gracie Xu
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