Life aint easy
Thursday, August 17, 2006
In another 12 more hrs im gonna sit for my mkting paper.. aint sure if everything could get into my head cuz im gonna refresh once again while im on my way to sch tmr.. and i cant get to slp.. so i decided to blog!
time flies.. in a blink of an eye.. half a sem has gone.. it just seems like i entered poly nt long ago..
hais.. life is really nt tat easy.. telling ppl im still in poly when im already 22 years old.. well, some of u muz have wondered hw cum i wait til this old to attend poly.. hmm.. here the story goes..
im a normal acad student.. which means ive to spend 5 yrs in sec sch.. and i flunked my O's badly with 30+ pts.. i guess i didnt take my O's seriously, i still remembered tat im slacking, sleeping during maths class and playing during weekends~
nt wanting to go to an ITE, i decided to retake my O's by self-study.. i dunwan to go back to sec sch cuz firstly, ive moved to punggol and my sec sch is in Jurong~ 2) ive confident tat i can pass the 2nd time..
bt then i still flunked.. cuz i concentrated working during tat time.. i didnt even study at all.. not a bit~ even my frd who promise to tutor me.. came up wif a stupid reason to say he cant... and guess wat, he told his mum to come talk to me!
so even if im unwilling, i still have to continue my studies in ITE.. i dunwan to spend my life working with such a low pay and only just an N level cert.. and as ive failed maths badly.. ive to start from Nitec instead of Higher Nitec..
i was depressed.. cuz i see my frds who went to ITE wif me need to spend 2 yrs there whereas for me, ive to waste 3 yrs of my life there..
bt then it gradually became better.. i noe lots of good frds whether im in Nitec or Higher Nitec.. i enjoyed my days.. and i really worked very hard.. cuz i believe tat if im able to get into a poly i can get a better job wif better pay in the future.. of cuz, i oso have to consider my age.. i would be old when i graduate.. bt i still persevere..
and yah.. i get to attend poly.. bt somehow having spend months here.. it seem that it isnt wat i believe anymore.. i dun seem to see the future anymore.. my frds who graduated from ITE gets high pay in their bank job and as for me.. im still wasting my life studying..
it aint easy u noe.. having to still tell ppl im still in sch at such an age.. i hate explaining y..and i dun like it when ppl keep saying im da jie etc, its nt easy.. bt still ive to persevere.. i kept thinking tat.. if i started working when i graduated frm sec sch.. i tink im already earning much much more wif my experience and i might be having a car now.. bt ive to stop myself frm thinking this way.. becuz ive already chosen my route and i need to persevere til the end..
i dunno wats the other end of the road will look like bt if ive nv walk there i wouldn noe.. i juz pray hard tat it will turn out to be wat i had once believe.. it will be wat i had wanted it to be.. i just hope tat it will be tat way!
Life aint easy
Thursday, August 17, 2006
In another 12 more hrs im gonna sit for my mkting paper.. aint sure if everything could get into my head cuz im gonna refresh once again while im on my way to sch tmr.. and i cant get to slp.. so i decided to blog!
time flies.. in a blink of an eye.. half a sem has gone.. it just seems like i entered poly nt long ago..
hais.. life is really nt tat easy.. telling ppl im still in poly when im already 22 years old.. well, some of u muz have wondered hw cum i wait til this old to attend poly.. hmm.. here the story goes..
im a normal acad student.. which means ive to spend 5 yrs in sec sch.. and i flunked my O's badly with 30+ pts.. i guess i didnt take my O's seriously, i still remembered tat im slacking, sleeping during maths class and playing during weekends~
nt wanting to go to an ITE, i decided to retake my O's by self-study.. i dunwan to go back to sec sch cuz firstly, ive moved to punggol and my sec sch is in Jurong~ 2) ive confident tat i can pass the 2nd time..
bt then i still flunked.. cuz i concentrated working during tat time.. i didnt even study at all.. not a bit~ even my frd who promise to tutor me.. came up wif a stupid reason to say he cant... and guess wat, he told his mum to come talk to me!
so even if im unwilling, i still have to continue my studies in ITE.. i dunwan to spend my life working with such a low pay and only just an N level cert.. and as ive failed maths badly.. ive to start from Nitec instead of Higher Nitec..
i was depressed.. cuz i see my frds who went to ITE wif me need to spend 2 yrs there whereas for me, ive to waste 3 yrs of my life there..
bt then it gradually became better.. i noe lots of good frds whether im in Nitec or Higher Nitec.. i enjoyed my days.. and i really worked very hard.. cuz i believe tat if im able to get into a poly i can get a better job wif better pay in the future.. of cuz, i oso have to consider my age.. i would be old when i graduate.. bt i still persevere..
and yah.. i get to attend poly.. bt somehow having spend months here.. it seem that it isnt wat i believe anymore.. i dun seem to see the future anymore.. my frds who graduated from ITE gets high pay in their bank job and as for me.. im still wasting my life studying..
it aint easy u noe.. having to still tell ppl im still in sch at such an age.. i hate explaining y..and i dun like it when ppl keep saying im da jie etc, its nt easy.. bt still ive to persevere.. i kept thinking tat.. if i started working when i graduated frm sec sch.. i tink im already earning much much more wif my experience and i might be having a car now.. bt ive to stop myself frm thinking this way.. becuz ive already chosen my route and i need to persevere til the end..
i dunno wats the other end of the road will look like bt if ive nv walk there i wouldn noe.. i juz pray hard tat it will turn out to be wat i had once believe.. it will be wat i had wanted it to be.. i just hope tat it will be tat way!
so you wanna know more?
With soft gray eyes she gloomed and glowered;
With soft red lips she sang a song:
What knight might gaze upon her face,
Nor fare along?
For all her looks were full of spells,
And all her words, of sorcery;
And in some way they seemed to say,
"Oh, come with me! oh, come with me!
Oh, come with me, my love, Sir Kay!"--
How should he know the witch, I trow,
Morgan La Fey?
-- Cawein, Madison J. (1865-1914), "Morgan La Fey"
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Name : Gracie Xu